Party!
Tomorrow afternoon I leave work early and head to the Shadowlane Pary in Vegas for the weekend. I’m going to be dressed in my new English school uniform. This means I get to go through airport security, the trip to Vegas, and the cab ride to the hotel dressed as a school girl. Am I embarrassed? Hmm a bit. How did this come about? Well, let me tell you!
By Bridget Young on 28 August 2008 in Bridget, Slice of life | Permalink | Comments (0) | TrackBack
Responsibility
So, I was punished the other day. I didn’t really disagree with it because I definitely made a mistake. He had planned to have some large items hauled away,and a couple of months ago I signed up for it. Yet, we missed the date for that even though all of us had mentioned it and wondered about it in the days leading up to it. That’s pretty cut and dried, right?
But, my Owner and I are sort of at an impasse about some of the finer details. You see, although I did definitely mess up and did deserve to be punished, I felt that this was an issue where responsibility was shared between the three of us. I felt CC could and should have just as easily solved this issue the several times she brought it up, and similarly so could he. So, I’m not saying I shouldn’t have done it, because I should have. I’m also not making any judgments about whether or not CC should be punished (although I think he thinks so). I just think we all failed.
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By Bridget Young on 30 April 2008 in Bridget, Slice of life | Permalink | Comments (5) | TrackBack
Who I Am
I've been wanting to write on this subject for some time now, but haven't really been able to find the words for it. I still don't think I am adequately expressing myself, but I'm going to make an attempt. I'm sorry for those of you who may be bored, but the subject I'm about to talk about is not really kinky. Instead I’m going to talk about something that is probably going to be boring for a lot of you. That’s right, I’m going to talk about religion. Feel free to surf somewhere else now if this is not your thing. I’ll be back to something kinky soon.
I’ve been on a very long spiritual journey considering that my life has been relatively short. I won’t bore you with all of those details, but I’ll tell you where it has taken me. I am a Christian. Really. There are plenty who think this is at odds with my chosen lifestyle. I’ll tell you a secret though. I think before I was aware of my nature as a submissive I was getting my needs for structure, dominance and obedience met through the Church. I was incredibly legalistic with it and followed all the rules and regulations very scrupulously.
By Bridget Young on 13 April 2008 in Bridget, Musings | Permalink | Comments (5) | TrackBack
Out of Sorts
I’m in a pretty weird place today. Unfortunately I can’t go into all the details, but I can say I’ve been involved in a pretty big screwup. I’m one of those people who tends to be very hard on myself. I have a lot of ingrained guilt, and even when I haven’t screwed up big time I can usually find several examples of mistakes throughout a given day. If left to my own devices I could easily find a reason why I deserve punishment all the time.
My Owner doesn’t view me the same way. One of the earliest pieces of advice he ever gave me was, “Being a better submissive means learning to trust your Dominant to punish you when you need it and not do it to yourself.” I’ve always taken that to heart, but I’m not terribly good at putting it into practice. You can probably imagine that if I’m guilt ridden in general, I’m ridiculous when I have something specific to obsess about.
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By Bridget Young on 22 February 2008 in Bridget, Slice of life | Permalink | Comments (2) | TrackBack
Wrong Focus?
“Am I in trouble Sir?”
“You need to stop asking that question. I will let you know if you are in trouble. If you are focused on that you’re focused on the wrong thing.”
Um… oh.
That was the conversation we had this morning. I’m really not even sure how to respond to it. I have a feeling he thinks I am in a different place than I am. See, the reason I always ask if I am in trouble isn’t because I focus on punishment, or that I’m trying to do the minimum to avoid getting in trouble. I realize that part of being a slave is failing at times and that my focus should be on serving him the best I can rather than avoiding punishment.
So why do I ask, then? Well, because I need more processing time than he does.
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By Bridget Young on 07 February 2008 in Bridget, Musings | Permalink | Comments (5) | TrackBack
All About Bridget!
Hi there everyone! As Mija mentioned already I did indeed write this intro recently in anticipation of being added to this site. I'm pretty excited to be here, so I hope I have something of value to add! Anyway, all the relevant details are bellow. I will wait nervously for your feedback!
I'm a young woman in my early twenties. I live in the middle of the USA with my family. My family consists of three children and three adults. No, we don't have grandma living with us. We have what is called a polyamorous relationship. Both myself and the other woman are involved with the same man. Are you scandalized? My parents are. This is an ongoing source of drama in my life. I'm sure you will hear about it again.
Most relevant to PB readers- what we have together is a Master/slave dynamic. In this instance He is the Master, and we are the slaves. In the most simple terms this means that He gets to control whatever he wants and we get to, well, obey. When we fail at the obedience thing is when discipline comes into play. Yes, it's usually painful.
There are some external things that go with being a slave. We address Him as "Sir." We sleep on the floor. We (read I) take care of most of the housework. We usually don't get to watch what we want on TV. Most of these things are actually more subtle than you might expect, though, and except for there being three of us we don't look that different from any of those sappy 1950s TV shows.
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By Bridget Young on 30 January 2008 in Bridget, Musings | Permalink | Comments (12) | TrackBack
Introducing Bridget as Our Birthday Present
Three years ago today the first entries to the PB went up! Woot! And to celebrate, a present for our readers and ourselves.
It's my pleasure to introduce a new PB writer today. She's both thoughtful and delightful and her name is Bridget. I know my procrastination in getting her added has been long enough that she's already got her introduction written so you have that delight to look forward to -- if you can't wait, the link to her blog is here. But I'll post a few of my own details about young Bridget just as a teaser.
Bridget is in her 20s, part of a poly family and in a Master / slave relationship. There have been occasions where I've heard What It Is We Do contrasted with BDSM and specifically the M/s dynamic but from what I've seen we've got a great deal in common, specifically in the area of being held accountable to an external authority. But anyway, I'm looking forward to Bridget's entries here and everyone's discussion of them.
Happy 2008 and happy birthday to us!
By Mija on 30 January 2008 in About The Punishment Book, Bridget, Mija, Musings | Permalink | Comments (2) | TrackBack
